Kemaren lusa hari Sabtu malam, aku pergi sama one of my housemate and the loyal members of Clubber!!!!hahahaha...well kita ke Bon Bon "temple" again, and I have to admit that I miss that club...hahahahaha....dan seperti biasa di Bon Bon, kita minum, dance, dan tepar...tepatnya saya yang teparrrrrr.....minum cuma berapa gelas uda tepar di sofa, tidurrr! waktu housemateku panggil-panggil ngajak dance, aku nolak-nolak dan gak sadar! after i slept for about 3o mins, then I went home----alone!
dan housemate ku nangis-nagis waktu dia sadar aku udah pulang rumah, sendiri....
These days are difficult for me and for my housemates. We all have problems, well..everyone has problems. Semua problem-problem itu datang silih berganti, bahkan di satu waktu itu numpuk. Eventough, it isn't my own problem, it's my brother, parent, friends, and sometimes...I have no time to think about my problems. It feels like.....fucked up!
When one of my friend asked me, "why did u want to get that drunk?"
"These days are so stressful. I just want to have fun lil bit..."
"Well, It ain't an excuse, miss. I know u understand it..."
"Yeah, I know it...It's just....I want to forget it for a short time, just for short time."
"It's okay..Don't do it that often!"

This afternoon, at bus stop...
"Lia!!!!!! I'll leave on Wednesday..this Wednesday!"
"No, Gaby...are you kidding me? It's too fast! I can't believe it!"
"I also couldn't believe it, Liito..I've already cried. When the teller said that there is a seat on Wednesday, I started to cry. I don't wanna leave too. But, I have no other choice."
and i just stood there, hugged her...
I cried in bus and started to figure it out. I'll miss you so much, Gabiito....
Te quiero mucho....

Sore nya....teman baek saya yang sedang lagi menikmati indahnya liburan SMS saya tiba2 dengan memberitahukan bahwa dia punya "cowo" baru!
I feel so happy when I read her blog that "calling me" is in her list to do in holiday. She keeps saying about me in her blog, and I always love the way her way to do it. Yeah, I have a lot a lot of things that I want to tell her..really.....
I'll call you soon! I promise....

I want a guy!
A man that I can call him brother, lover, friend, girl friend, boyfriend, dad, and best friend....
A man that I can call "HOME"
When??