It started when I saw him at the edge of the bar, near pool table. With black polo shirt and long vintaged jeans. He was looking for his friend. What was he doin heree???? well, it wasn't a best place to meet him. The lights were so glam, but I could see him clearly. I know it was him. It has been 2 month since last time I saw him at school. But now, saw him at bar? or club, or whatever it is...It was such weird.
I told Alicia that I saw a guy that I like, but the point is.....I never be able to talk with him. Well, it isn't because I don't have chance. I have chances. We have class together everyday, he is a friend of my house mate's boyfriend. The thing that I could do is...staring at him. I have no problem to talk with stranger or someone new. But, just for this guy? Or a guy that I like, I always and always have problems.
Alicia insisted me to go to talk with him and my answer was always same, NO!
Suddenly, Alicia went towards him and asked if he know me or not. Well, I wasn't clear what Alicia asked him, but Alicia went back to me with him. I was so embarrassed and nervous. I couldn't talk in calm tone. When he saw me, I could see his face tell me "Ahhhh...I know this girl." He was smiling back to me. He grabbed my shoulder and asked me how I was goin these days. Did I pass the exam, which university I will go, and so on. I asked his name *i know it before,hehehehe. just to show that I just know him*, he asked mine, it was just lasting for 3-5 mins, then he said that he was hangin out with friends. So, he had to go back with his friends.
It was our first short conversation in private!
I am happy that finally I had a moment that I could talk with him.Even it was just for 3 minutes.
However, the first time is the most difficult one, then rest of it, you can do better and much easier.
I still feel my heart is racing now, for him. I am surprised that my heart can beat like this for him.
Last time I knew, I just think that he is an interesting person.
But now.....maybe it will change.....
Maybe......
