i wish i had Bamboo-Copter as Doraemon's so i don't have to be stucked in traffic every morning,
i wish i had Dokodemo-Door (anywhere door) as Doraemon's so i can go any beaches that i always dream of and pop out in front my beloved friends and family just in finger snaps,
i wish i had Small Beam (a flashlight-sized lamp) as Doraemon's so i don't have to carry heavy things anywhere i go, and it's so convenient to help everyone for moving in and out,
i wish i had Memory Bread as Doraemon's so i don't need to be stressed out everytime i have exams and once i don't need those memories anymore i just can poo it outta :D,
i wish i had Restoring Beam (a flashlight-restoring lamp) as Doraemon's so i can save up all my money because i just can restore any broken items to original state,
i wish i had Deep Sea Cream as Doraemon's so i can swim without my tight swimsuit and goofy google and dance all around the sea with those beautiful and awesome fishes,
i wish i had Fluffy Medicine as Doraemon's so i can float up to the sky and i really wanna bring my "future" boo for stargazing and dancing in front of the moon and i'd be so joyful cause i do the moon-dancing XD,
i wish i had Cloud Hardening Gas as Doraemon's so i could avoid busted-party and those shit cursing from neighbours because i'd host massive partys on clouds! amazingly delirious!
i wish i had Sticker Truth as Doraemon's so i really want to hear my "future" boo saying out loud those 3 magical words "I love you" and it's enough for the rest of our time,
i wish i had Translation Jello as Doraemon's so I can talk to everyone in this giga yet narrow world and bend a lot of friendship from every degree of this globe,
i wish i just had that magic pocket on Doraemon's tummy so i can have those above great stuffs.....
and i just wish I were Doraemon (but, sadly since Doraemon is a "HE")
so.......
maybe, Dorami?

ps: Dorami is cute and kind and adorable and nice and generous and smart and higher-tech than her bro and mysterious like me,hahahahahahahahahaahahaha

Label: days, random me

October 5 is the 278th day of the year (279th in leap years) in the Gregorian calendar. There are 87 days remaining until the end of the year.

The City of Anaheim was founded

Because of the implementation of the Gregorian calendar this day does not exist in this year in Italy, Poland, Portugal and Spain

Hollywood Black Friday: A six month strike by Hollywood set decorators turns into a bloody riot at the gates of Warner Brothers' studios

An Indonesian military transport crashes after takeoff from Jakarta killing 137

The first official version of the Linux kernel, version 0.02, is released

and my ex's birthday....

so i had that idea...yes...to call him.
i never heard any of his news for more than a year.
i don't know things bout him.
unbelievable, i called him. i said "hey, happy birthday!"
and he just "..........hmmm."
for a second, i thought he would get mad. I had no idea why i thought he would get mad. But he did not.
"I was so surprised". That was all i could hear from him.
I try to catch some update from him within asked him how he passes through his life.
It seemed good, but not so happy.
Should I happy?
or what??

3 minutes before...
His home phone number still stuck on my mind. I pressed the number and my heart beat randomly. The same feeling..always....the atmosphere and how i feel when i called him to his home. Silent...and awkward.
Still feel so afraid...afraid that his parent will realize the one who called is me.

Somehow, i know....he felt the same way as i did.
He asked me, did i miss him...and because of that i called him.
I answered "No". I just wanted to say Happy Birthday. He was part of my life.
So, I suggested to myself to wish him for his birthday. And still the same thing happens, I am the only one who says Happy Birthday.

The feeling....still there.
How if...........????
No...There is how if for me.
I have to get over it. and i know i have to!

Label: love life, random me

It started when I saw him at the edge of the bar, near pool table. With black polo shirt and long vintaged jeans. He was looking for his friend. What was he doin heree???? well, it wasn't a best place to meet him. The lights were so glam, but I could see him clearly. I know it was him. It has been 2 month since last time I saw him at school. But now, saw him at bar? or club, or whatever it is...It was such weird.

I told Alicia that I saw a guy that I like, but the point is.....I never be able to talk with him. Well, it isn't because I don't have chance. I have chances. We have class together everyday, he is a friend of my house mate's boyfriend. The thing that I could do is...staring at him. I have no problem to talk with stranger or someone new. But, just for this guy? Or a guy that I like, I always and always have problems.

Alicia insisted me to go to talk with him and my answer was always same, NO!
Suddenly, Alicia went towards him and asked if he know me or not. Well, I wasn't clear what Alicia asked him, but Alicia went back to me with him. I was so embarrassed and nervous. I couldn't talk in calm tone. When he saw me, I could see his face tell me "Ahhhh...I know this girl." He was smiling back to me. He grabbed my shoulder and asked me how I was goin these days. Did I pass the exam, which university I will go, and so on. I asked his name *i know it before,hehehehe. just to show that I just know him*, he asked mine, it was just lasting for 3-5 mins, then he said that he was hangin out with friends. So, he had to go back with his friends.
It was our first short conversation in private!
I am happy that finally I had a moment that I could talk with him.Even it was just for 3 minutes.
However, the first time is the most difficult one, then rest of it, you can do better and much easier.
I still feel my heart is racing now, for him. I am surprised that my heart can beat like this for him.
Last time I knew, I just think that he is an interesting person.
But now.....maybe it will change.....
Maybe......

Label: love life, random me

how is the feeling to be rejected?
your phone call is rejected by someone you hope to pick it up
your love is rejected by the one you love
your story is rejected by someone who can't hear you
your life is rejected because they don't really know
you are rejected by people around you
you are rejected from university that u really want

rejected!

depressed, stress out, offensive, paranoid, hate, ............

i know it is really damn sucks to be rejected.
everyone expects to be accepted.
but, what can u expect from people around you?
i wish i never expect from people around me.
You will get things that you don't expect.
Because this is life.
Life is unexpected.
Our life is too wonderful to be expected.
There are miracles everyday, even just little.
Accepted or rejected.
It depends on us, how we handle and face it....
Because this is our life...not others.
We are the one who have control.

Label: days, exam, important, people, random me