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and my ex's birthday....
so i had that idea...yes...to call him.
i never heard any of his news for more than a year.
i don't know things bout him.
unbelievable, i called him. i said "hey, happy birthday!"
and he just "..........hmmm."
for a second, i thought he would get mad. I had no idea why i thought he would get mad. But he did not.
"I was so surprised". That was all i could hear from him.
I try to catch some update from him within asked him how he passes through his life.
It seemed good, but not so happy.
Should I happy?
or what??
3 minutes before...
His home phone number still stuck on my mind. I pressed the number and my heart beat randomly. The same feeling..always....the atmosphere and how i feel when i called him to his home. Silent...and awkward.
Still feel so afraid...afraid that his parent will realize the one who called is me.
Somehow, i know....he felt the same way as i did.
He asked me, did i miss him...and because of that i called him.
I answered "No". I just wanted to say Happy Birthday. He was part of my life.
So, I suggested to myself to wish him for his birthday. And still the same thing happens, I am the only one who says Happy Birthday.
The feeling....still there.
How if...........????
No...There is how if for me.
I have to get over it. and i know i have to!
