Kemaren lusa hari Sabtu malam, aku pergi sama one of my housemate and the loyal members of Clubber!!!!hahahaha...well kita ke Bon Bon "temple" again, and I have to admit that I miss that club...hahahahaha....dan seperti biasa di Bon Bon, kita minum, dance, dan tepar...tepatnya saya yang teparrrrrr.....minum cuma berapa gelas uda tepar di sofa, tidurrr! waktu housemateku panggil-panggil ngajak dance, aku nolak-nolak dan gak sadar! after i slept for about 3o mins, then I went home----alone!
dan housemate ku nangis-nagis waktu dia sadar aku udah pulang rumah, sendiri....
These days are difficult for me and for my housemates. We all have problems, well..everyone has problems. Semua problem-problem itu datang silih berganti, bahkan di satu waktu itu numpuk. Eventough, it isn't my own problem, it's my brother, parent, friends, and sometimes...I have no time to think about my problems. It feels like.....fucked up!
When one of my friend asked me, "why did u want to get that drunk?"
"These days are so stressful. I just want to have fun lil bit..."
"Well, It ain't an excuse, miss. I know u understand it..."
"Yeah, I know it...It's just....I want to forget it for a short time, just for short time."
"It's okay..Don't do it that often!"

This afternoon, at bus stop...
"Lia!!!!!! I'll leave on Wednesday..this Wednesday!"
"No, Gaby...are you kidding me? It's too fast! I can't believe it!"
"I also couldn't believe it, Liito..I've already cried. When the teller said that there is a seat on Wednesday, I started to cry. I don't wanna leave too. But, I have no other choice."
and i just stood there, hugged her...
I cried in bus and started to figure it out. I'll miss you so much, Gabiito....
Te quiero mucho....

Sore nya....teman baek saya yang sedang lagi menikmati indahnya liburan SMS saya tiba2 dengan memberitahukan bahwa dia punya "cowo" baru!
I feel so happy when I read her blog that "calling me" is in her list to do in holiday. She keeps saying about me in her blog, and I always love the way her way to do it. Yeah, I have a lot a lot of things that I want to tell her..really.....
I'll call you soon! I promise....

I want a guy!
A man that I can call him brother, lover, friend, girl friend, boyfriend, dad, and best friend....
A man that I can call "HOME"
When??

how is the feeling to be rejected?
your phone call is rejected by someone you hope to pick it up
your love is rejected by the one you love
your story is rejected by someone who can't hear you
your life is rejected because they don't really know
you are rejected by people around you
you are rejected from university that u really want

rejected!

depressed, stress out, offensive, paranoid, hate, ............

i know it is really damn sucks to be rejected.
everyone expects to be accepted.
but, what can u expect from people around you?
i wish i never expect from people around me.
You will get things that you don't expect.
Because this is life.
Life is unexpected.
Our life is too wonderful to be expected.
There are miracles everyday, even just little.
Accepted or rejected.
It depends on us, how we handle and face it....
Because this is our life...not others.
We are the one who have control.

Label: days, exam, important, people, random me

today is a really tiring day!
banugn tidur kerasa badan gak enak, masih ada bekas demam semalam. batuk-batuk, tenggorokan sakit...gak enak tiap menit gatel tenggorokanku. trs langsung sms Ji Young tanyain hari ini mau makan siang bareng gak, soalnya kemaren gak sempat makan bareng. Dia uda nunggu dari kemaren buat ngobrol-ngobrol. walhasil, kita makan siang di warung sebelah ban gong shi apartemen, itu depot baru buka, depot singaporean food. Makanan nya enak, tempatnya bersih, pelayanan ny lumayan biarpun pelayan nya agak budek2 trs sering salah gitu, heheheehe...pas makan, ada orang Cina dateng buat makan. salah satu pria yang ada disitu uda ke meja kasir buat pesan makanan, pas dia nanya temannya mau makan apa...temannya jawab sambil tereak marah-marah, bilangnya makanannya gak enak, gak bisa dimakan, ngamuk-ngamuk gak karuan, asli gak punya manner sama skali...ngliatnya tadi jadi ikut panas...

abis makan, aku sama temanku ke foreign student office di sekolah. temanku mau tanya masalah languange course buat semester depan dan summer course beserta urusan visa nya. sampe sana ternyata guru-guru yang di office masih waktunya lunch break. ya uda nunggu di ruang tamu sambil ngobrol-ngobrol. gak lama guru-guru yang kerja di office itu uda datang dan mereka liat aku dan temanku lagi nunggu, gak ditanya perlu apa langsung nyelonong aja masuk kantor mereka. aku amsuk ke kantor mereka trus tanya dengan sopan, eh dijawab nya sekenanya tanpa melihat muka ataupun mata saya sebagai penanya. menurut saya, tanda dimana kamu mnghormati orang yang lagi ngomong itu dilihat matanya...boro-boro mata, muka aja gak ditoleh. seperti kita mengemis-ngemis sama mereka. hatiku uda lumayan jengkel diperlakukan seperti ini.
sorenya, aku coba untuk telpon tongji university buat tanya tentang pendaftaran dan perpanjang visa. masalahnya aku gak mau pulang ke Indonesia karena buang-buang duit. telpon-telpon line nya busy trussss...waktu nanya bisa gak minta tolong diperpanjang visa nya, orang sana gak mau ngurus, mereka bilang itu urusan saya sdri...
gak lama mama telpon, cerita tentang keadaan disana yang asli bikin aku sedih dan stress sekali!
speechless!the thing i know...i just want to hug her, my mom!

selama seminggu ini...aku bener-bener capek deal sama orang Cina disini. well, memang rasis, tapi...mengapa mereka tidak mengerti sopan santun dan tidak peduli orang lain sama sekali????
bahkan kemaren lusa aku ada liat iklan di dalam subway tentang peduli sesama dan iklan itu ditujukan untuk mempersiapkan Olympic. dalam iklan itu ada cuplikan klip dimana dalam lift ada ibu gendong bayi yang lagi tidur, orang yang disebelahnya waktu angkat telpon disarankan berbicara pelan ( orang Cina terkenal kalo bicara kencang kaya pake mic), trus ada supir bus nunggu penumpang untuk masuk bus apalagi orang-orang tua yang jalannya pelan (berarti sehari-harinya sering ditinggal jalan), trs waktu hujan disaranin share payung sama orang yang gak bawa payung...
well....segitu parah nya kah orang-orang Cina?
hal yang segitu simple nya sampai harus di iklan kan???

arggghhhh....tidak gampang hidup di Cina ini....
enough for today...
tired already...