I've never been this lucky or magical with any other class except. Investment class. Actually I didn't mean to take this class. I took this class before, but according to the system all my morning class would be deleted automatically because I have to attend my morning--boring-language classes. Technically, this Investment class would be deleted with others class because it's hold in the morning. But then when I checked my schedule, it's still there and i have no time to dump this class because the system is closed already. I just don't care and leave my schedule like that without any efforts to change or whatever. I open my school-page everyday to check my attendance because I know that I'm a bad student who just go to school for attendance (i can't join the final exam if my attendance less than 60%). I'm a loyal school web page visitor, anyway, hahaha...
So, 3 weeks before final exams, i open my page and check my attendance(good habit) and according to my attendance this Investment class was at the lowest rate...maybe around 13%. For sure, i have to take this class again next semester or whenever i want.
3 days before exam, magically, this Investment class has 62% of my attendance! Surprisingly, I never ever go this class even for once! None of this class I've been attended! Dilemma....should i join the final exam? Or just give up and take it once again next again??? Hm ....tough decision....
I consult with my friend and they told me to try the final exam. I will take it once again next semester either I won't take the exam or I'll fail this class. So, I decided to take the final exam. The exam of Investment class which I never go and have no idea about it. What I heard from my friend is...this class is pretty difficult.
I asked all my Indonesian friend who take this class in this semester. Luckily, one of em take this class and help me to find the materials for the final exam. When I took a look at the materials, suddenly I can feel what hell it is! I really have no fucking idea about this thing and i should remember all this shit stuff in a night.....hmm...lemme calculate it.....it's not even 24 hours left. I texted my friend and tell him to enjoy this hell.
The exam day, I already woke up in the morning, then i have this idea, how about I give up and just continue to sleep? It'll lead to failure anyway...I can't remember all those materials in a nite within never going to class. But then, I just woke up and prepare for this exam. At least, I tried. That's all i can think at that moment.
The exam started, I stared at the questions without any idea how to solve those questions. I played with my pen and eraser and my paper and everything i can play. I twisted my hair and try to focus and hoped that a lil idea can appear or popped out in my head. Time has passed around 1 and a half hour. This exam would finish at 11 am. 10 minutes before exam finished, suddenly, my cellphone received a text message from my friend. Guess what????? The answers are coming from my friend!!!!!!!!!!!without asking or hoping or somewhattttt!!!I can't believe what I saw and quickly I copied em all!!Well, i wasn't cheating, hahahaha...*evil laugh*
I didn't ask and I didn't open any book to cheat. I was just receiving so generous and kind message from my beloved friend! Now, he is my beloved friend because he helped me when I really need it and I didn't need to ask!!!hahahahahahahaha......What a day, pal! I love everyday with every miracles inside!

See the miracles everyday, buddy!

Label: days, exam

how is the feeling to be rejected?
your phone call is rejected by someone you hope to pick it up
your love is rejected by the one you love
your story is rejected by someone who can't hear you
your life is rejected because they don't really know
you are rejected by people around you
you are rejected from university that u really want

rejected!

depressed, stress out, offensive, paranoid, hate, ............

i know it is really damn sucks to be rejected.
everyone expects to be accepted.
but, what can u expect from people around you?
i wish i never expect from people around me.
You will get things that you don't expect.
Because this is life.
Life is unexpected.
Our life is too wonderful to be expected.
There are miracles everyday, even just little.
Accepted or rejected.
It depends on us, how we handle and face it....
Because this is our life...not others.
We are the one who have control.

Label: days, exam, important, people, random me

4.30 pm waktu Shanghai....bel berbunyi, it was ended....
crazy exam is ended...
hell yeahhh...dengan tergesa-gesa dan tak rela menyerahkan kertas matematika yang masih banyak bolong-bolong...gak bisa jawab T______T
semua teman-teman saya menghela nafas dan mulai lah mereka ribut saya juga ikut ribut semua pada ngomong "死定了...数学死定了!" ( mati! matematika...mati!)
sampe di halaman sekolah, ketemu teman sekelas yang laen, muka uda gak stress lagi tapi ketawa kaya orang gila...发疯了! kemaren waktu ngerjain soal Bahasa Mandarin dan Sosial, muka-muka pada kusut dan stressssss abissss....sampe temanku si Ji Young nyletuk, "aku uda siap-siap mo loncat dari gedung" sambil ketawa-ketawa. Kemaren itu lebih parah dari hari ini punya...ujian bahasa susah, banyak bacaan yang susah dimengerti dan kebanyakan bukan pilihan ganda, harus nulis sendiri. disuru nulis inti bacaan discussion nya apa bla bla bla....dan kemaren itu ujian bahasa belum cukup bikin kita stress, jam ke 2 ujian sosial science, bener-bener bikin hati stres, dag dig dug tiap menit ngomong "kenapa aku gak tau soal ini ya?" "kenapa aku gak bisa ngerjain ya?" "shit, ini ada di buku tapi gak ngapalin!" "gila!ni soal bilang si guru gak penting..." dan berbagai macam. walhasil dikit banget bisa ngerjain ujian. aku kira cuma aku aja yang bego bego gak bisa jawab ternyata teman-teman sekelas ku juga bernasib sama. sampe kita kebanyakan uda gak niat lunch, mo cepet-cepet makan tuh lunch trus belajar biar gak bernasib sama kaya ujian-ujian sebelumnya...felt like hell!
yang bikin jengkel, aku dan teman-teman sekelas bener-bener uda belajar mati-matian. well, for me, this is my second time study that hard. first, when i had the final exam in my elementary school. belajar sampe subuh paginya ke sekolah, otak kaya mo pecah.
dan hasilnya...seperti itu.....TIDAK!!!!!!
kemaren waktu aku stress-stress nya...si Christa telpon, helped me a lot. Let my mood got better! Malamnya mama dan bapak gantian nelpon, tanya gimana ujiannya. mereka tau aku stress, trs aku juga bilang ngerasa gak enak, sungkan, uda bayar mahal buat preparation ini, kalo sampe gak keterima di univ, depressed sekaleeeee!
dan untuk pertama kalinya mama dan bapak ku mengirim sms tengah malam, kurang lebih isinya sama, bilang jangan terlalu jadi beban, sabar, yang penting uda usaha, trus mereka selalu doain saya, selalu dan selalu.

fiuhhhhhhh....lega!
hari ini ngerjain ujian Inggris sama Matematika lebih santai, uda gak seberapa dag dig dug lagi, uda gak ngomel-ngomel lagi. sampe rumah, both of my housemates were waitin for me, and asked "how was the exam?" and i said "yeah, it was better than yesterday" and they replied "great! we know u can do it". kemaren malam mereka uda masakin masakan mexico khusus buat aku. katanya biar gak stress, biar seneng >o< senangnyaaaaaaaaaaaaa ^_______________^ tinggal nunggu pengumuman, and that's all! doain ya semoga keterima! I'm so grateful to have everybody who are around me, and do care about me. Even sometimes I feel like "aaahhh...they don't that care about me". But, no! They do care!
Bunch of thank you for you guys! Bunch of bless for you! Bunch of smile from me!
Special thanks to :

1. Almighty God
2. Super Mom and Duper Dad
3. Christa
4. Eli and Gaby -->house mates
5. Song Ji Young --> crazy partner
6. Lluvia -->neighbour
7. Martina --> teman seperjuangan
8. Candy --> guru les Matematika
9. 预科班的同学们 (ichi, oppa, shoko, luc, leo, sung pil, enrica, cai yan, totori, etc)

uda kaya mo bikin album lagu aja sampe ngucapin makasih sama smua nya kaya ginii....
gimanapun juga....mereka punya andil dalam pertarungan ujian kali ini, hahahahaha.....


when something is ended...the other thing will begin, REAL SOON!

FIGHTING FOR ANOTHER DAY!

Label: exam